Fertility Unspoken

Hi Friends!

Today is a big milestone in my IVF journey—the day I take my first injections! I’ve been waiting for this moment, but as it approached, I found myself feeling a mix of excitement and nerves. Would I feel different immediately? What if something goes wrong? It’s a whirlwind of emotions.

As I gathered everything for my first injection session, I couldn’t help but feel like I was stepping into a whole new role—like a nurse preparing for a procedure. I was surrounded by vials, needles, and syringes, trying to remember everything I had learned during our previous consultations. The process involves mixing vials and measuring doses, which felt both intimidating and empowering. Who knew I’d be playing pharmacist in my own home?

The two injections I’m starting with today are Menopur and Gonal-F. Each plays a crucial role in stimulating my ovaries to produce eggs, which is what we’re ultimately aiming for in this journey. I can’t help but marvel at how these little vials contain so much hope—each one a step closer to our dream of starting a family.

I set everything up on the kitchen counter, trying to steady my nerves. The thought of mixing the solutions made me feel like I was performing some kind of science experiment. It’s incredible how much preparation goes into this process, from understanding dosages to making sure everything is sterile. With every step, I felt the weight of responsibility—but I also felt a sense of empowerment. I was taking control of my journey, doing what needed to be done.

Finally, the moment arrived. I took a deep breath and readied the first syringe with Menopur. I’ll admit, I hesitated for a moment, staring at the needle. It felt surreal. I knew this was a necessary step, but the thought of injecting myself was surreal. However, I reminded myself why I was doing this. I focused on my goal and the hope that lay ahead.

With a quick jab, the needle was in, and I pushed the plunger down. It was over in a flash! I almost couldn’t believe I had just done it. My heart raced, and for a brief moment, I was filled with a mix of feelings.

Next came the Gonal-F injection. I repeated the process, feeling a bit more confident this time around. Each injection felt like a declaration of my commitment to this journey—a small but significant step toward a future I’ve been dreaming of.

After I finished, I sat down and took a moment to breathe. I felt a strange mixture of emotions wash over me: relief that the first injections were behind me, and a bit of anxiety about what comes next. I’ve heard there will be more injections added as we progress, which feels overwhelming. More steps, more opportunities to get closer to our goal.

I know this journey won’t be easy, and I’m sure there will be days filled with uncertainty and challenges. But today, I’m celebrating this small victory. Taking these first injections is more than just a medical procedure; it’s a declaration of hope. It’s the start of a new chapter in my life, and I’m ready to embrace whatever comes next.

Thank you for being part of this journey with me! Your support means the world. I’ll keep you updated as I navigate this path.

Until next time,
Danielle 💜